Today I want to share with you some thoughts on the whole topic of giving birth...
...there is a reason for why I am doing this post - I was not able to give birth the way I wanted to and it was not easy for me in the beginning to accept this. In the end I think its all good the way it went and maybe there are women out there who will experience the same as I did (or who already did) and for whom it will be helpful to read my thoughts on this. And since today is mothers day, I thought its a good day to share this story of mine :)
For me it was always very very important to give birth naturally. It was THE MOST important for me. There was nothing I was more afraid of than a c-section! My pregnancy went really well, as some of you know, so there was no reason to believe that I will need a c-section in the end. The baby was healthy, I was healthy and so I was getting all prepared to give natural birth - I took yoga classes to train the body parts I would need during delivery, I drank lots of rasberry leaf tea to prepare the uterus, I learned how to breath during delivery and I tried some meditation. I was all ready.
And then I got to know that my baby did not want to turn its head downwards. It was in breech presentation since week 26 of my pregnancy and around week 34 the doctor told me that I should prepare myself for a possible c-section. I thought "NO WAY!" and I began a marathon to different mid wifes, hospitals and doctors... the midwifes tried to make my baby turn downwards with alternative methods, such as homeopathy and acupuncture, the doctors tried to turn my baby around from the outside and in the hospital I made a MRI scan to check if my basin was wide enough to deliver from breech presentation (it was not). It was stressful and exhausting and nothing helped!
Some days I thought its stupid to make all of these efforts, because if my baby wants to turn, it will and if it does not want to it will not, and I should accept and respect her decision. But I also thought that if I would not try everything I could, I would regret it afterwards and I would reproach myself.
Two weeks before the actual birth of my baby, there was no more doubt about that I would need a c-section - and I was frustrated! But in the end it turned out that this c-section was excatly what my baby wanted and that there was a reason for why it did not turn its head downwards; its umbilical cord was very short so it wasnt able to turn. If I would have tried to give natural birth, terrible things could have happend...I do not even want to think about all of what could have happend! So in the end it turned out that it was just right the way it went and there was a good reason for everything.
This whole story made me realize once again that we should trust in how things goes and that we should just accept things the way they go, instead of trying to make everything work the way WE think is the best.
Today, I am fine with the fact that I got a c-section and my baby is so happy, quiet and wonderful that I feel like she is okay with it too. I wrote about the whole process about how we tried to make her turn around and all the thoughts we had during this time, in her baby-diary (which I write for her since the beginning of pregnancy) so that later, when she is older and she asks why she was not born naturally, she will be able to understand.
How do you think about the whole story of how to give birth? Can you understand that it was difficult for me to accept a c-section or do you think its fine to give birth this way?
Here is a last post about my pregnancy...
The last three months of pregnancy are quite intense for most women - the belly is getting really heavy, its more and more difficult to breathe and many women experience problems with heartburn, nausea and fatigue.
For me it was first in the really end of my pregnancy that I began feeling very tired. I felt great in the 7th and 8th month and I had much more energy than I had in the beginning of my pregnancy. I drove my bicycle every day, I went to my yoga classes and I had the energy to go grocery shopping, going for long walks and to spend lots of time in the kitchen, cooking and baking :)
The last four weeks then became a little more tiring. I could no longer walk for more than maybe 30 minutes because the pressure on the pelvis got really strong in the last four weeks of pregnancy. Some days it was that painful that I could not walk at all (towards the last few days...). In the last four weeks I also had to throw up for the first time during the entire pregnancy (most women have these kind of problems in the first trimester but there I did not experience anything like this). It had severe heartburn every night and I found it more and more difficult to get a good rest at night, because of the huge belly, the heartburn and the baby moving around in the belly.
I spent a lot of time just sitting with friends (or with my husband) drinking tea, enjoying the Spring weather or staying on the sofa, reading or studying. I enjoyed these last weeks, even though it was a little difficult sometimes with all these small aches and pains.
However, I also had to go to lots of doctors appointments, I had to go to the hospital several times and I was visiting different midwifes... in some sense the last few weeks were rather stressful, but I will make a post about all of this soon!
During the third trimester, we also bought lots of stuff for the baby, we bought a beautiful prams, my husband made a baby changer, we bought lots of small things, such as woolen blankets, a lambskin to sleep on during the day and things for the bathroom. We changed around in the appartment and slowly everything got ready for the arrival of our little girl. Since we prepared the apartment step by step, our baby became more and more present step by step.
In the end we felt sooooo ready for her to arrive and it was difficult to wait :)
Now this is my last maternity look!
It has everything I love at the moment - light pink, floral prints and grey. The sweater is a new one which I actually bought for after pregnancy but then I could not wait wearing it and I was really happy to see that its fits on top of my belly :)
I hope you enjoy this last matenity look of mine. I will be back soon with new outfits... I guess from now on I will have to change my style in a way that makes it easy for me to breastfeed with whatever I am wearing. This is going to be a new challenge and I am looking forward to it. In case you have any tips or tricks or inspirations - please let me know!!!
I hope you are all doing good and I am sorry, I am not that active in the bloggersphere right now. I am sure you are all able to understand that I prepared some posts in advance to be able to spend quality time with my new born. As soon as we get a routine, I will be back for real :)
Until then, I hope you keep coming around my blog :)
A casual Spring outfit...
So here I am wearing a H&M blouse on top of a simple white shirt, a H&M maternity jeans, some really old sneakers and my floral scarf from C&A. I like the lace details on the dark bloue blouse- it gives this casual outfit a little bit of an extra :)
As you can maybe tell from my last outfit post, the floral scarf became one of my new favorite items pretty quick. I bought it some two weeks ago and I am wearing it a lot since. I actually got a small bunch of new scarfs for Spring and Summer the other day, when there was a 50% off all reduced items at C&A. I made some pretty good deals and I will show you what I got (next to the one I wear here) in the coming weeks.
Actually, while you are looking at these pictures and reading these words, my belly is already gone!
I will tell you more soon... for now, this post was prepared in advance which means that I cannot tell you yet how I feel and how my baby is doing. But I will soon, I promise!
I dont know what this thing with pink is...
... but I just wear this color A LOT recently. So here is another pink belly look :)
By the way, there are two things I learned during pregnancy:
1. a simple dress is always a good option, as long as you can wear a nice blazer (or cardigan) on top
2. blouses are made to be worn unbuttoned during pregnancy :)
So here I am wearing a blouse from sheinside which you can find here, on top of a simple pink H&M top, together with my floral scarf from C&A and my H&M maternity jeans.
I actually never
thought of wearing my blouses unbuttoned before I got pregnant but I
find it great since my belly got that big that I could not wear my
blouses buttoned up. I am a huge fan of blouses and I wear them almost
every day so I was really happy when I realized that they actually look
really good on top of a tee or top. And I loved to wear all my
favorite blouses during the entire pregnancy :)
I am somehow really happy that I learned a new way of styling and combining my blouses because of my big belly. Pregnancy really made me learn a lot - even things I will take advantage of when the belly is gone :)
How do you like this look?
I hope you are having a wonderful week so far... the weekend is close. For me its going to be a really special weekend. I will tell you soon why and what I did :)
Sending you all lots of love!
I love floral prints!
And I am wearing them a lot recently... since its gettings more and more difficult to dress up, I like to wear my floral blazer on top of a simple knit dress to keep the comfort on a maximum level and still enjoy some floral prints :)
So here I am wearing
my Hess Natur cashmere dress (such a great piece for pregnancy! I
already loved it before but I do even more now that it accompanied me
during the entire pregnancy) and a floral blazer from PROMOD which I got
on sale some time in January. I am pretty much in love with it and I
think I will wear it a lot this year. So be ready for more outfits
including this blazer ;)
Maybe you can tell
fromt the small houses in the background that we took these pictures in
Naumburg where we spent our Easter weekend (I posted something about it here)
That day I have been tired since we walked a lot and I think you can tell from my face that I am not really full of energy.
I hope you all had a wonderful weekend! I had a most wonderful one - my eldest brother and my mother came to visit and we had a great time together. I do not see my family members that often so its always something special. My brother lives in Ireland and my mother in another part of Germany, so we usually see each other only 3-4 times a year. The weather was also perfect this weekend so we enjoyed the sunshine, went out for dinner and had lots of tea and coffee in nice little coffeeshops :)
Grey with light pink is one of my favorite color combinations...
... I liked this combination for cozy Winter outfits and I still like it now that Spring is (veeeery slowly) coming. So here is an outfit in my favorite color combination :)
I am wearing a simple grey, woolen dress from Zara in here, its actually around six years old and I still wear it on a quite regular basis. It definetly was a good choice at the time :) I am also wearing my light pink H&M cardigan and my thrifted striped blazer which is also from Zara. Then I am wearing my comfy old sneakers from a market in Paris and my new handbag from C&A which I found on sale the other day for only 6 euro. I was super exited about this and I wore it every day since ;)
I do no longer wear my maternity jeans that much since my belly is just getting too big for them. So I switched over to maternity leggings and I am mainly wearing simple dresses (like this one here) on top of them. I still love being pregnant but slowly I am also really looking forward to wear ALL my clothes again, to feel comfy in jeans again, to wear skirts and all the shirts I want :)
I hope you are having a wonderful week so far!?
Sending you all much love and sunshine!
It was cold when I took of my coat to take these pictures...
...the weather these days is crazy; its hails, rains, a heavy wind blows and its cold. Still I wanted to take some pictures so I took of my Winter coat for five minutes so that my husband could shoot some pictures really quick. We took advantage of some fiveteen minutes where there was neither rain nor hail and we hurried to get back home again after taking the pictures. This is really not what Spring is supposed to be like, I think.
So, I am wearing a H&M maternity skirt here, which I bought second hand online. I am also wearing my really old handbag (second hand) and my old and comfy sneakers, which I bought back in 2010 on a market in Paris, where I used to live at the time. I rarely wear them but these days (pregnancy, you know...) I am happy to have them :)
The blouse is actually a new-in from the ONLY online shop. Its so oversized that I can wear it now and I am curious to see what it will look like when I am no longer pregant :D
I actually bought two new blouses from the ONLY online shop, but one is a little tight over the belly so I will wait a few weeks until I show it to you. I also want to show you my other new-ins in some outfit posts soon. At the end of the month I am again going to make a budget overview of March and April with all the things I bought in these two months.
For now, I wish all of you a most wonderful Easter holiday and a happy Easter celebration! I hope you spend a wonderful time with your family and friends!
My husband and I are on a small getaway for Easter and I will be back with some pictures from a lovely small town that I am going to discover and explore... I am really looking forward to the cute hotel we booked, good food, a little bit of shopping and just to spend time with my husband - a last weekend just for ourselves, before the baby arrives :)
Sending you much love!
Still no Spring weather around here...
...so I still wear pink to cheer myself up :)
Here I am wearing my pink blazer which I actually bought back in 2013 somewhere in a mall in Connecticut. Since, I only wore it ONCE! I have no idea why. Maybe I was afraid of the pink color, maybe I was afraid of the shape, I really dont know. But the other day I looked at it and I thought if I do not wear it now I will have to sell it - so I wore it :)
The dress is from the H&M maternity section and I bought it second hand a few months ago. I am also wearing my super comfy prego leggings and my super old and super comfy booties. Comfort is getting more and more important these days, when I choose my outfits. Now, a few weeks before delivering I really feel like an ooooold lady which needs lots and lots of comfort ;)
How do you like this look? I am curious about your opinion!
I wish you all a wonderful week and sending you much love!
My belly is growing enormously these days...
... look at the difference from this post from three weeks ago and today! Every morning, I wake up and I feel like I grew bigger again over night :)
Well, its only some four weeks left so its okay that the baby is growing a lot, it needs to be strong when it arrives in this world, so it better gains some extra weight in these last few weeks. The closer the due date gets, the more we are getting impatient. I really want to get to know my baby, I want to see it, hear it, smell it, everything! We really can`t wait for it to arrive.
Anyway, about the outfit - we actually took these pictures in the park next to the birth clinic where we went last week to register and get to know the doctor and midwifes. The clinic is really beautiful and surrounded by a beautiful park and I am actually looking forward to give birth there.
I am wearing a Lands End
blouse and a maternity Jeans from H&M. The white tee is from
C&A. The glasses are from firmoo like all my glasses.
I wonder if I am the only one wearing Lands End clothes!? A
friend of mine keeps telling me that its an old ladies shop and
sometimes laughs at me when I order something there. But I actually
really like the awesome quality and I just bought two new Lands End tops
online (I will show them to you soon!). Did you ever buy anything from
Lands End or do you also think its an old ladies shop ;)????
I hope you are doing well and enjoying this Spring weather :)! I wish you all a wonderful rest of the week!
